“They’ve
been there 250 years since 1776. The Dene and the Cree fought over the
location. Then the French came along … and on & on,” says my wife in a
Whats App family chat, referring to Ile-a-la-Crosse, after a visit to the
birthplace of our daughter. Then a telling reply from Sheila, our son’s
mother-in-law, “Oh Verna, it does go on and on. I believe we might all meet up
again after this life. In the meantime, we have beautiful memories. Love you
all.”
This little
family exchange has suddenly become meaningful to me, after yet another
significant gathering for Verna and I. We met with some 50 persons, a sizable
portion of our 1966 – 68 Bible School years. Organized by a few diligent
fellow-retirees, it was amazing. Long and somewhat drawn-out by repetitious
details, those five hours will now be a historic moment even as most of us will
likely be dispatched to that next chapter in the near future. “On and on” is
the significant commentary on this the morning after, writing from an upstairs
bedroom which I shared with my brother in the farmhouse which sent us off on
the adventures of our lifetime(s).
It’s a
rainy morning, wonderful rain ever essential on the prairies, except it’s
harvest time, and a little dry weather (drejh wada) would be helpful
right about now! Coming home to our original farmyard (quick trip to nearby
town for a morning coffee – bad habit yes) I see some things exactly as they
were, caragana hedges between the highway and the garden, pastureland out
beyond the barn, and cows standing in faithful discomfort. Everything still in
place as per my memories. And then it’s all different. Now this farmyard has
signs, and even on a rainy Monday morning already a few customers to pick up
their exquisite pasteurized-but-not-homogenized high quality milk! It’s a
high-end product on the market, especially available for those who can afford
it and willing to make the trip from the nearby city. This is contemporary,
complete with employees and all that involved with complex business ownership
managed by my sister and brother-in-law.
It’s only
two months since we lost our daughter, adopted into and part of our family ever
since she was gifted to us, a six-week old bundle of joy some 51 years ago. She
has been a part of literally everything each time we visited grandma and
grandpa’s farm, loving and being loved by all and everything that happened
here. This has been one of the happy places in her full and happy life until
just these last several years of her adult life. My wife and I have just
returned from a trip up North to visit the place where she was born.
Earth
shaking, but really earth-shaking for us only. The Indigenous community of
Ile-a-la-Crosse has history, old history, similar to history everywhere, not
just to us. In the village of her birth we saw teen-agers and older ones, and
even some grandmas probably living life similar to her young mother. She was
child of a teenager. Whether she would have benefited from a trip up there we
don’t know, but we are delighted to have made a discovery trip up to the land
of Adrianne’s birth. It’s helped us somehow in the grief journey. Grieving goes
through its stages, as I have known for years. At the moment Verna and I are comforted to celebrate those many years before the addiction got to
her, and now the love and supportiveness of Bible school and church and family friends in this last while.
Life is
going on as before. Even with a new emptiness, at this time it is the trees and the
farmyards and the villages - exactly what we need. Rest in peace dear daughter!